30 December 2012

My Year in a Nutshell


2012 has been a beautiful year for me, and these are just a few highlights from every month! God has been doing awesome things with me-- I'm just along for the ride!

January

  • Spent three and a half week in San Francisco, CA -- loved (almost) every minute of it! I worked in a 4th & 5th grade classroom with some absolutely wonderful kids!
  • We biked the Golden Gate Bridge! So fun!
Our lovely group on our first day!
  • Took a weekend with some dear friends (Caty, Cory, Lynne, and Erin) to go stay at Devin's house in Napa Valley! We went wine tasting, played LOTS of Up and Down the River, watched movies, ate hummus, and just loved being together!
February
  • Student teaching began! That is about all I have to speak of. 
March

  • Anna got engaged!
    The lovely newly engaged Anna and Andrew!
  • Whitworth was on Spring Break -- I was not -- which meant I spent a lot of time with Caty and Liz at their house (who were also not on spring break!). 
April
  • I took my spring break to go stay with Anna in New York for 5 days, as well as head up to Providence, RI to spend a day with Erik at Brown. It was such a sweet time of relaxation. wedding planning, sight seeing, and quiet time! Even in the midst of the Big Apple, I was able to have some wonderful Starbucks-across-from-Central-Park afternoons by myself.
  • This was also the month where I made the final decision to spend the next school year teaching abroad in Ghana! I got to start talking specifics with Autumn and got the ball rolling!
May
  • I had to say goodbye to my little kindergarten munchkins... I loved my student teaching kids, and I learned so much from them!
  • I graduated! I was blessed (and lucky!) to complete my BA from Whitworth with degrees in Elementary and Special Education (as well as endorsements in Reading Instruction and Early Childhood Special Education) in just four years -- thank you, Betty Williams, for a solid 4-year plan!
    I did it!
  • I moved out of the Burrow :( After two wonderful years spent in this house, it was finally time for us to sort through our ridiculous amount of things, decide which things didn't even belong to people who lived in the house anymore, and move out!
  • I started subbing in the Federal Way School District, which is two districts away from where I grew up going to school. I was fortunate to be able to start working there just a week after graduation!
    • High of this experience: The day when the teacher told me we had art class (for an hour and a half), the art teacher never came, and we all survived the day anyway! Also, I had a job that lasted 3 days and it was fun to get comfortable with the students and feel a little more competent by the end (as this was my first week!).
    • Low of this experience: Day 1. Half-day. Horrible. Student threw a pair of scissors. Pretty much, things could only go up from here!
June
  • I moved into an apartment in Seattle for a month and a half! I got lucky -- Alison had 2 leases to fill for the month and only one of herself, so Caty and I got to share a room in her apartment right next to the University of Washington.
    • Pros: Live with my best friend. Live right next to the place where I want to go for grad school. End up having awesome neighbors. Live a 10 minute walk from Alyssa and Karl, who were planning their wedding. Live a 20 minute bike ride from work. Not live at my parents' house (sorry mom and dad).
    • Cons: None! It was great.
  •  I also started working for Seattle Park and Rec for the summer! I worked with their specialized youth programs for kids with disabilities as a counselor for their day and overnight camps. I was blessed with a wonderful co-counselor, awesome campers whom I miss all the time, and a fun staff! It was such a great summer job and I am so thankful it all worked out!
My co-counselor Ashley, with Anna in the background!


Not that I have favorites... but if I did, it would be Gracie!
July

  • Alyssa and Karl got married!! It was such an honor to be able help these two prepare for their wedding, be a part of their special day, and get to hear about their life after the wedding as well! Alyssa has been such a special friend since my freshman year of high school and I could not be happier or more proud for/of her! And I guess Karl's pretty great too :)
The lovely couple!
  • Anna came home from a month-long stint in Ghana/Germany/New York, and wedding planning mania began (in the best way possible)!!
August


  • Work ended, which meant that prep for Ghana really began!
  • I got to take a few days to go visit college friends in Spokane and say some hard "See you soon!"'s
  • Caty lived at my parents' house for about a week with me, which was just pretty entertaining all in itself!
  • Anna's bachelorette party, despite my great deal of stressing about it, was a success!
Along with the best view of the city, given to us by the random lady in the left of the picture, we also got champagne thrown on us! If only we had actually planned this, instead of it just happening... But we'll take it!
September
  • Andrew came into town and Anna and Andy got MARRIED! It was a beautiful, perfect, low-key, FUN and joyous day! I was blessed to get to stand there next to Anna and have such a fun part in this great day! I love you two and am so happy and excited for your adventurous German life together!!
    The Wedding Party! Copyright Brianna Dose.
  • I moved to Ghana! Craziest, scariest, BEST thing I've ever done in my life! I live and work with City of Refuge Ministries, where we have both a school and an orphanage (technically a foster home) on campus. Our school is open to both our kids as well as kids in the villages that surround us. Life here is so different, so hard, and so great.
  • This was my second day in Ghana, when we opened up a new children's home... I was still trying to figure out what in the world was going on around me!!




  • With 24 hours notice (the day before school started), I got asked to teach 2nd grade instead of special ed... Sure, why not?!?! It only lasted for three weeks (thankfully), but it was HARD!
October
  • My classroom was finally ready to be in use by the end of the month! I started working with some of our new children that had just come to live with us this summer, most of whom had never been to school before.
  • I had my first stuck-in-the-mud-and-we-can't-get-out driving adventure on our way to a Girl's Day! No, I was not the one driving, but it sure was a bonding experience with our two new volunteers who had just arrived the day before!
 November
  • I celebrated my first Thanksgiving (including going to school on Thanksgiving) away from Washington! It was, surprisingly, not at all hard to be away... Just really weird to have a 90 degree turkey day!
  • I baked my first pumpkin pie while listening to Michael Buble Christmas music in the Omorefe kitched... It was the first time that it felt even remotely close to the holiday season!!
  • Thanksgiving dinner! So good!
  • I finally started working with the students (age ~8-16) that I will be with for the rest of the year! The month was spent trying to organize my room with Holly, help take things out of Autumn's office and give them a home, and figure out how the heck to run a resource room!! Easier said than done. I am most definitely still trying to keep my head above water!!
 December


  • Finals. Gross.
  • Said good-bye to Holly, as she left City of Refuge "for good" to return home and finish school. She went out with a bang as we spent an afternoon with the Beebe family at a "nearby" river, jumping off rope swings and out of trees!
Jumping off the rope swing!
  • Said "see you soon" to all my little ones there as I headed back to the States for a month!
  • I was able to spend 6 wonderful days in Spokane, being loved on by my friends there and getting to break the news to Tricia that I would be coming to her && Jesse's wedding! It was such a beautiful time and so, so needed for my heart!!
Reunited with my roommates!
  • I have spent all month complaining about the cold... But a 60 degree difference is just killer!!
Overall, God has been SO faithful and powerful this year! He has led me 7,000 miles away from my friends and family, but right into His open arms. There has been joy and festivity in every month of this year, as well as travel in many of the months, and I am so grateful! I pray that this holiday season is finding you with rest, love, and peace as we enter this new year!

19 December 2012

Home Cold Home

"Oh ya, America is cold..."

Honestly, this was the first thing that came to my mind as I stepped off the plane in New York. The girls behind me were giddy with excitement, returning from their time studying abroad... I, on the other hand, wasn't so sure what to do with myself.

I love having warm showers. I love eating raspberries. I love being able to not think twice about texting people. I love running into my student teaching supervisor at Starbucks as I'm processing with my pastor. I love cuddling up and watching movies with Tricia and Devin.

I am trying to refrain from feeling grumpy about all the things that are overwhelming to me eyes and my heart... The number of choices at the grocery store, the number of tall, beautiful buildings I see, all the choices on the coffee menu, the number of white people I see... Trying to remember that life is not better or worse anywhere, just different. Some places, it's much more painful and much more needy. But that doesn't mean life is worse.

Being "home" is sweet. "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" keeps coming on the radio... "Faithful friends who are dear to us will be near to us once more...". I am so thankful for this. For the first time in my life, I have two sets of lovely people, on both sides of Washington, that I am coming home to this Christmas season. Twice the love, twice the catching up, twice the joy, twice the amount of blessings.

I am grateful for comforts. I am grateful for perspective. I am grateful for the life that awaits my return in Africa. I am grateful for the opportunity to live and love in these two very different worlds.

15 December 2012

Leaving


“Auntie Kathy, you will go today? I will cry.” “But I will come back! It’s ok!”

“Auntie Kathy, Auntie Holly go… She will not come back.”

“You get many Christmas’ in America. Why can’t you have one Christmas in Ghana?”

“I want you to come back BEFORE Christmas.”

Plenty of tears were shed on Thursday night as sweet Holly boarded a plane back to California. She has left big shoes to fill in this place… I am thankful for her, her heart, her friendship, and her courage in listening to the Lord’s call to stay in this place an extra three month… Packed for a week, came for 10 weeks, ended up staying six months. A true, pure exercise of FAITH.

The countdown is at less than 7 hours until take-off. It’s a little surreal at this point… Life in America has felt so far away for so long. I mourn at the news of a school shooting in Connecticut, and simultaneously mourn for the thousands of lives in Africa that will die of malaria today… Unnoticed and unannounced by the media. I mourn for the children who are still entrapped by the chains of modern day slavery, even though 36 sweet souls have been brought to this place, able to escape those ties forever…

When I come back, sweet Portia will be home with her forever family. They get here tomorrow… Everyone is so excited for them. Trying to sneak in as many last-minute kisses and soft whispers as I can while she is still in my arms… Losing both Portia and Holly in this place means a lot of beautiful energy sent off to work other places in this world.

I am excited to go “home”. I am nervous to go “home”. I am waiting to see where my heart will be at once I am 7,000 miles away from this place. Trying to hold on to this...

"11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength." Philipians 4:11-13

I leave today. Today! I still can’t grasp that.

09 December 2012

Falling in LOVE


For the first time in about three months (which would make that the first week I got here), this week involved a lot of tears. However, this time, the tears were not tears of missing friends and cool weather and Ben and Jerry’s… They were tears of pure, glorious love. Love for these children, love for this creation, love for the God who orchestrated this whole plan.

Sitting on the couch in the Redeemed Center, listing to Enoch try and explain just a little bit of his life in his fishing village… Having Florence fall asleep in my arms sitting on that same couch a few days later, with all the kids saying “Florence, go sleep in you room!” and me not being willing to let her go… Watching Sammy and Moses prance around like long-lost brothers, just being 8-year olds… Wanting to go seek out Portia at movie night but not wanting to leave DK’s side, only to have Portia come pounce on me a few minutes later… Praying over her and the near-arrival of her Forever Family (EIGHT DAYS!)… Meeting a whole new set of children in another orphanage and listing to the cries of “Mommy, take me!” directed at me… I am not a mommy, and while I can hold them and love them, which is really all they want, I cannot “take them”… But they sure can take me. They can take my heart, every last bit of it, and shatter it into a thousand pieces only to have it instantaneously put back together with a bright smile and a new hairdo on my head…

I don’t cry out of sorrow and I don’t cry out of pity. I don’t cry because I am sad for them and I only cry a little because I am sad to leave them for a month. I cry because I love them.

I cry out of love for the freedom that is in their eyes and the stories that are in their hearts and their mouths. I cry for the horror stories that were thrown out of their future when they were rescued after being abandoned, orphaned, or trafficked… I cry for the beautiful new lives that have replaced their living hell. I cry for the way they love me, despite my past and my sin and my insecurities and my sometimes-too-quick frustration that still sneaks in all the time… They love me because I will love them, and that’s all they want.

Yesterday, I spent all morning and all night reading (from beginning to end) “Kisses from Katie,” a beautiful story of an ordinary girl, born probably just a year or two away from me, who found a new, beautiful life for herself in Uganda after following God’s call to this far-away place. A new life filled with 14 adopted children, a new language learned, a house located close to a slum, and a beautiful, poverty-filled, hope-filled, Jesus-needing new home. Her book is filled with praises to God, stories of miracles happening and lives turned around through His work in her. As I’m lying on my bed reading it, I feel as if I have it too easy… I live on a land that God has BLESSED, giving us electricity and running water even when the town ten minutes away goes without it for weeks on end… In a house with lots of space and lots of fans and lots of life (and lots of bugs, but we’re tough. Sometimes we are tougher than others… But still). But I know that this place is where I am supposed to be.

 Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I lived a ten minute walk away in the Shai Hills village across the street. I know it’s a totally different world just right there… Sometimes I wish that’s where I was supposed to be, because I feel like “comfortable” sneaks in, even far away from the life I used to know. And next week, comfortable REALLY sneaks in, as I board a plane back to America for a month… A country without these 36 beautiful souls in the next house, a country without Indomie for lunch and without mangoes growing on trees (CORM really needs a mango tree here…), a country where I will be far away from Holly and then come back to this place without her, a country with seemingly everything at my fingertips, except for the opportunity to look to God at all times… Not that I’m the best at doing it here, but it’s sure a lot easier than it ever was in America…

Don’t get me wrong. I get giddy thinking about walking toward people I know at the airport, looking at e-mails from Tricia and Devin planning my week in Spokane, talking with Caty about our car ride together and figuring out when we will get to see Lynne Corn Dog, thinking about my much-too-short weekend in Thousand Oaks, CA before I come back to Ghana with a family whom I love dearly, planning on staying in my bed for as much as possible (partially because dealing with the outside world will probably be really hard) when I am at my parents’ house… I am both excited for and dreading the comforts that await me, simply because I don’t want them to replace the comfort that God has provided for this ministry here. The comfort that God is trying to provide for all of us, every day, no matter where we are… We just aren’t so good at seeking it out or believing it’s there.

My time at home brings much to be done… Fundraising (and lots of it), planning, organizing, shopping, eating… But more than anything, I hope it involves a whole lot of loving. Last night as I couldn’t sleep, I lay in bed thinking of how awesome people are… Which I know sounds so silly. “Wow, people are so cool!” But I was just overcome with thoughts of how truly similar everyone in this world is, regardless of whether they sleep in a mud hut or a five-bedroom house for five people (this is me and my family), whether they live in Uganda or Ghana or the United States… Yes, culture is different and people look different and act different and want different things… But all of us just want to be loved, both by each other and, for most (many? I hope it’s most) of us, by something Greater… My heart sat there just dying to be the one God chooses to show extraordinary love to people. If “…out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks,” (Luke 6:45) I want my mouth to show this love that continues to overtake me…The love that I have been shown and the love that has captured my heart through the beautiful little people I know here in Doryumu, Ghana… And through the beautiful adults I know here as well! The hearts I hear spilled out at Bible study every week, the hearts that get shared in one-on-one’s, the hearts that come together in the late hours of the night in our bedroom to share sorrows and joys and worries about yesterday, today and tomorrow, the hearts that come together for a meal every evening… I am thankful for the community that was put in place for me to join here. Yes, I am a Whitworthian to the core, and “community” was my biggest fear coming here… But God probably looked at me going “Really? You think I drilled this into you for four years and then would leave you hanging out to dry? Come on, my daughter! You can keep asking people to pray about it, but I already have it all set up for you.”

I keep praying for my heart. For the things I am seeing and feeling and learning to truly manifest inside me and change me… For my heart to look and feel different. For my heart to show love more freely and purely. For it to be a better reflection of God’s heart for me!

I have a long way to go. But what a blessing this life is!

PS- Six days, one church service, one day at the art market, three days of school, one Christmas program, a few conferences with parents, and a whole lot of “see you soon’s” until takeoff next Saturday night… I can’t believe it’s so close!

26 November 2012

Short and Sweet

When I was in San Francisco, I was trying to blog every day but there were days (weeks, even) when I was EXHAUSTED and needed to write a post in as few words as possible. Today, I’m going to see if I can sum up my last week…

Medical outreach. At a government school… Super crazy. Super intense. Awesome to deworm and do HIV testing for as many as we could. Hard to see lots of aches and pains that can’t be healed in a day. Made friends with a little girl in a purple dress… The cutest little girl ever!

Three day school week. SCORE!

THANKSGIVING. Tons of food. Tons of dancing. Lots of baking! Lots of extra people. Fun but chaotic. Yes, we ate American food. No, I didn’t really miss home. Watched football! American football! So thankful Houston FINALLY won the game.

Weekend. Accra trip. Pizza took forever. Worth it. Failed attempt at fixing our internet. Successful attempt at recovering my gmail account (including my blog). Rest.

Today. Stressed. Overwhelmed. Left my patience at home. Workout with Autumn, Holly, Emily, and Stacy. Awesome. Time to plan.

Always checking my e-mail. Always missing people. Also, usually content here.

Home in 20 days. AH!

I am still trying to process what it means to be “going home,” even though it is just for a month. I think it’s going to be really hard… But also, hopefully, really good. I am greatly looking forward to spending my first week of being home in Spokane with the people I love and coming home just in time for Christmas and a few more weeks back home. Wrapping the trip up with about 4 days in SoCal, I will then be headed back to Ghana for five more months (with a lot of chocolate, peanut butter, Trader Joes goodies, and dried fruit in my bags!!)! I can’t believe these first three months have already passed, yet at the same time, I can’t believe it’s only been three months… Great things are happening in this place, and I am thankful to be a part of it, even when it feels overwhelming and stressful at times (example A: me crying in my classroom after school today, overwhelmed at my inability to effectively organize. I really need to break that habit!).

Thankful for the little things, like leftover pumpkin pie and eye contact with the other adults over something hilarious a child is doing. Little things like Moses pretending to hide my water bottle, or Bismark telling me how to spell his name. Also, thankful for BIG things like best friends and God’s love! Happy Monday, friends.

17 November 2012

Resource Room Support

My classroom has been a “project” since the beginning of the year. Here is the shortest synopsis I can give of my year so far…

First two weeks of school, teach in second grade (with about 24 hours of notice). Spend a week subbing and testing. Start doing individual work with two students as my classroom is covered in wood shavings from library construction. Do this for a couple weeks until the carpenter stops showing up and I realize I have to take things into my own hands. Spend a few days cleaning out the classroom and taking extra desks from other classrooms to try and fill mine. Realize I have a 10-foot high GIGANTIC cupboard in my classroom that I don’t know what to do with and is too heavy to move on my own. Eventually start taking small-groups even though there are still buckets of paint and extra sheets of wood in the back of my class. Come to terms with the fact that once a first grade teacher is hired, I will have to give up these students to another teacher. Have this actually happen. Realize that I finally need/get/have to start with the groups that I will have for the rest of the year. Have Holly come in and tell me we’re rearranging my class. Get overwhelmed. Do it anyway. Realize I envision having a reading/quiet/work corner… But have nothing to make it happen. Finally have Autumn convince me to dive in with my groups. Have a relatively successful (and stressful) first two days. Write this blog.

One of the things that I’m trying to do in my class is to break the mold of Ghanaian school culture… To do things hands-on.  To make my classroom feel welcoming. To have my room be a place where change happens. I don’t want my classroom to feel like we’re in America… I just want my kids to feel like they belong and can be comfortable here.

Part of this process involves having resources… Having manipulatives, having mats on the ground to sit on (kids here really hate sitting on the ground… it’s pretty funny), building a shelf to start a mini-library, getting and making things to decorate the walls and fabric to cover the open shelves…

I am asking that you consider helping me in this process by making a financial donation at the City of Refuge website with the purpose of it going to my classroom. Every day, I have a 17 year old come in who is trying to learn to read… A 13 year old who can tell me 8 letters of the alphabet… An 8 year old who made me cry when he recited the spelling of his name out loud to me… a 13 year old who is thriving after she has spent multiple years learning and loving at City of Refuge, and now needs to be pushed to keep going… an 8 year old who laughs with joy as he beats me at football, but shies away when I ask him to do a math problem, still figuring out what his new life at CORM means for him… These are faces of hope, faces of potential, faces of opportunity, and I want to be able to give them more.

Please consider helping me in bringing change to these kids. My goal is to raise $200 for this project. You can donate online at www.cityofrefugeoutreach.com using their PayPal button… When making a donation, include a note of “KT1- Classroom,” which will send the money to me.

While you are at the website, take a look around… Find out what this ministry is about. I am blessed to be a part of what these people are working to accomplish, and I hope that you are willing to partner with us in the process of “educate, motivate, liberate.”


The Secret Life of an Introvert


I’ve always known I was an introvert. There are times when I definitely show extroverted qualities, and I do love being around people, but I am definitely someone who needs alone time in order to be able to function well.

This week, introvert-galore struck me. I saw down with Holly in my classroom just saying “I’m so tired of people… Just having them by.” And it’s not that I don’t love them. I just need space! And to add on to my introvert-ness, I know I’m also a homebody… I love to do things, but I also need my (slow, quiet) time at home. And though we are here all week, there’s not a ton of time to just relax around then house… There is always work to be done!

Our house is getting fuller and fuller… Emily moved into our room in the middle of October and since then, we have had three staff members move into another bedroom. This means more personality, more things going on, and just more people…

I’ve been going running as a means of both getting time by myself and of trying to raise my energy level. While this has been good for me, I am a horrible runner so it doesn’t last for long…

I have realized that the library is an awesome spot for me to camp away after-hours when I need a quiet space to sit and read or work. I don’t last super long over there because the school is dark and creepy outside and I don’t like being over there by myself, but still…

This weekend, Holly and Emily accompanied the YGAP group here from Australia to a beach for a few days. I chose to stay here, and was left with pretty much am empty house and two days to myself… I could not be happier.

It’s only noon on Saturday and I haven’t done much yet, but I am already feeling better. Excited to be able to say “no” to things (Stacy and Autumn and John, I hope that “Sparkle” is everything you wanted it to be!), excited to spend time with the kids, excited to run and play football, excited to check things off my to-do list, excited to have time to read and get into the Word and rest… Excited to just be!

So today I am thankful for space… for time… and for quiet! But just as thankful as I am for these things, I am also thankful for the people here… Both those that live here and those we see often. They are a huge blessing to me and I am thankful that God set up a community for me to transition into during my time here in this country!

PS- This afternoon brought my first African baking adventure (chocolate chip cookies!), and cleaning lessons from Paul... Success!






Sweet Portia Girl


This morning I was sitting at my living room table in aquiet house… The best blessing I could ask for. Time to be here and break andrelax and just be by myself.

As I was trying to figure out how to make iMovie work onStacy’s computer (I stink at the whole Mac thing…), Edwin (3yrs) came runninginto the house crying “Portia (5yrs) took my circle!”

I walked out to my porch to find our sweet, full-of-energyenergizer bunny Portia with her bottom lip out and her eyes cast to the ground,holding both a metal circle (who knows what it even came from…) and a littlecloth flower bracelet. Yes, she had Edwin’s “circle,” but she also looked likeshe had a heart full of hurt.

Portia is in the final stages of her adoption process andwill soon be heading HOME to Knoxville, Tennessee where she and a girl fromanother Ghanaian orphanage will be loved with open arms and open hearts. Portialoves her new mom and wants to be there so bad. Originally, the hope was tohave the girls home for Thanksgiving. Mabel, Portia’s new sister, has all herpapers ready to go… But Portia’s have faced complications and she hasn’t gotteneverything she needs. Therefore, it’s a waiting game at this point…

You can see it in Portia’s eyes. You can see it in Portia’sbehavior at school. You can see it in Portia’s heart… She longs to be HOME!

At first, when Edwin and I came out, Portia wouldn’t talk tome… She kept her eyes down and unwillingly sat in my lap until she scooted outonto the ground after about a minute. After she gave me Edwin’s circle and heran away happy as a lamb, Portia eventually gave in… First climbing back up tosit in front of me, and then onto my lap, and then clinging to me… She stillwouldn’t talk, but she didn’t need to.

In this moment, the only thing I wanted to do was sit thereand tell Portia how much she is loved. How loved she is in this place, afterbeing here for two years and being loved so deeply by Autumn and Stacy and theadults and children here… How loved she is by the volunteers, as she seems tocapture the hearts of those who are here for even just a day… How loved she isby God, who has set out such a beautiful plan for her filled with joy andfreedom and a forever family… How loved she is by her new parents, just waitinganxiously to bring her home as soon as the get the go-ahead…

So naturally, I just cried. I couldn’t say a word… I justcried.

Cried out of love for this girl. Cried out of love for allthese children, especially after watching video footage of previous CORM tripsto the Volta region earlier today. Cried out of joy that I am able to be hereand be a part of moments like these.

Eventually Portia started playing with my braid and thenbecame my hair stylist. I would have had a picture, except then “let’s sit inKathy’s house and not leave and then kick her when she tries to pick me up andthen accidentally kick Edwin in the head” became a game from one of the otherkids, so my chance was lost… But let’s just say, Portia may have many gifts,but I don’t know if hair styling is in her future.

However, what is in her future are many things… Joy.Freedom. Hope. Life. LOVE. So, so, so much love. And that is the best thingthat anyone could do for her.

16 November 2012

Words


Me: “I keep looking at her blog but she hasn’t written in it for forever!”
Caty: “Kathy, you haven’t written in your blog for forever either!”

But I look at it often… If I look at it often enough, won’t the words just write themselves?

The words of tears of frustration over every aspect of life here… The words of being overwhelmed by the constant presence of people all around me (oh the life of an introvert)… The words of struggling through beginning to share my classroom space and handing over a group of kids whom I love dearly to a teacher whom has a long way to grow… The words of feeling so desperately lonely yet surrounded by people, grasping for any little communication from my loved ones 7,000 miles away… The words of early-morning lesson planning and attempts to avoid chaos…

The words of hushed talks with Holly in my classroom about whatever is on our heart… The words of one on one’s with Autumn where I get to just be… The words of watching Stacy jump on a trampoline for the first time in her life… The words of pleading with God to heal my heart which breaks on a daily basis… The words of preparing to visit the community where our sweet Moses was enslaved… The words of hugs and conversations (and constant frustrations) with Bismark… The words of seeing the relief on Rosemary’s face and hearing multiple exclamations of “THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!” when I was able to make her computer work again…The words of Autumn talking about looking at blog stats and being thankful I’m not the only one… The words of playing soccer with the little boys until dinner time and having Sammy prance around like a little pre-professional with a grin on his competitive face the whole time… The words of finally starting to work with the groups I will have the whole year…

The words of paining stomachs… The words of forgetting to take your laundry out of the washer all day long… The words of getting a dresser for our room and screaming for joy… The words of sunset prayer runs… The words of afternoons in the one coffee shop we know exists in Ghana… The words of conviction from a telecast at 2am in the Beebe’s living room…

No, I suppose they won’t write themselves. I guess that’s my job.

25 October 2012

Pumpkin Spiced Frustration

This afternoon during lunch I typed in “pumpkin spice latter Starbucks DIY” because I wanted to know what special syrup you need in order to make your coffee taste like heaven here in Africa. Little did I know that I would find a HUGE number of articles reporting on a Pumpkin Spice Latte shortage in the US this Fall. One article had pictures from tweets that had gone up about it… “’Sorry, there’s an area wide shortage.’ #firstworldproblems.”

Just an hour before that, I was sitting in Autumn’s office saying “I don’t understand this [Ghanaian] culture that not only lets kids slip through the cracks, but pushes them in there… I don’t understand this culture that enslaves their children… I don’t understand this culture that punishes children for being different. I don’t understand a culture where critical thinking is basically nonexistent… And it’s not even that I don’t understand, it’s that it makes me mad…”

I honestly believe there are enough technology and resources  in this world to create a world [a whole world, not just a North American/European/Asian world] where children have a chance. No, I didn’t go do research on this, but I can look at a cityscape (or the front of a Starbucks) in Seattle or New York or San Francisco and believe that within these areas, there is money to create change. I also believe that without people to kickstart this change, any money is worthless. But there are ways to make it so that they don’t have to be put on fishing boats at the age of 7. There’s enough money to pay for these kids to eat and sleep. But instead, we are fretting because we can’t buy our damn Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Lattes.

And that’s not to say I don’t love lattes. I crave coffee shops all the time here… Not coffee, though I love that too, but coffee shops. The atmosphere, the comfort, the familiarity, the conversation with Louise at Pleasant Blends over my pumpkin muffin and caramel vanilla latte. I miss all of that, and I am so much a culprit on this first-world-problems mindset. I even have first world problems in Africa… My power went out about 30 seconds ago and I want to throw my plate across the room. The menu button on my iPad is acting up and I just shake the stupid thing because I’m mad at it. I hate black eyes peas, and we eat them all the time. None of these things are life-or-death, meaning they’re about as silly as fretting over a shortage of Pumpkin Spice syrup.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve made #firstworldproblems comments many times over the years… I still chuckle/cringe (depending on the day) over an e-mail from Tricia while I was here that said “I just want to say as a side note that these are first world problems...and you are the only person I have ever said that to where it has literal meaning!

But it’s true. Right now, I do feel the literal meaning of that statement. I can say it as a joke… But from here, I can also say it as a cry for open eyes.

A cry to realize that #thirdworldproblems aren’t a joke. A cry to realize that #thirdworldproblems means #thirdworldheartache. A cry to realize that sometimes, these heartaches are life or death. Sometimes, it means a child’s education. Sometimes, it means the future of a family. Sometimes, it’s a whole country in a despair they don’t even know is there.

So today, I’m mad at America and I’m mad at Ghana. I don’t want to bash on either of them… But I want to wrestle with them.

The whole time I’ve been here, I’ve been clinging to the line of the song Hosanna, “Break my heart for what breaks Yours… everything I am for you kingdom come. Show me how to love like You have loved me…”

Today, my heart feels plenty broken. Now I have to figure out where to go from here…

But in this, I encourage you to seek out ways to make change yourself. Seek out ways to give, both to the people around you and to people across the world. Find a way to provide for someone, whether it be financially, emotionally, spiritually, or physically. Find a way to other encourage people who are seeking out this change as well. Find a way to show someone life.

20 October 2012

Missing Crisp Fall Days


In this moment I am sitting on my living room floor, headphones sending sweet sounds of the new Mumford & Sons CD through my ears, compliments of Caty Lieseke… thank you, friend, for sending this to me. I am sipping tea that reminds me of a January spent at Mountainside Middle School in the month when I told myself I wouldn’t buy coffee. I am sitting in the presence of three wonderful girls/women on a beautiful Saturday morning. Right now, things feel peaceful here.

But this week wasn’t a very peaceful week. Sunday I woke up feeling angry at the world… Which was frustrating, after returning home from an awesome adventure day on Saturday. I was angry to be 7000 miles away from the people I love. I was angry to have to deal with trying to figure out what to do about Tricia and Jesse’s wedding. I was angry that I had to go to a church that doesn’t engage me, because as Autumn pointed out to me, “It’s not our heart language.” I was angry that I couldn’t sit on a couch or hug a friend or go out to a movie and eat buttery popcorn and then have a calzone at Tomato Street or a White Christmas pizza from The Rock. I was angry that I didn’t have phone credit to call anyone at home. I was angry to be here.

I knew that God wanted me to draw closer to him. I knew that if that was where I really focused, all these other things would seem bearable (or even silly). I knew that I needed to change my heart… Make that, I needed Him to change my heart. But I didn’t want to need that. I wanted what I wanted.

So Monday I stayed angry. I cried in my classroom in the morning, not wanting to go pull kids to do any work. I got frustrated at Bismark as things didn’t seem to stick in his head. I got frustrated seeing kids hitting each other and being disrespectful. I was upset by everything, just because it was in Africa. So I went and sat on Holly’s classroom floor at lunch and talked to her, when she told me what I needed to hear, but not what I wanted to hear. I walked away still angry because I didn’t want to do what I needed to do.

I told myself I wasn’t going to go on the internet until Thursday after Monday night. Well, Tuesday morning Holly was using my computer to go on, so I had her open up my e-mail. When I went to close it, I was blown away to find messages from three of my most precious friends, Randi, Caty, and Devin. All three sent messages of encouragement and love and shared struggles. But from the moment I opened Devin’s, I knew God was listening to my heart… I found an e-mail titled “Don’t Give Up” and filled with Bible quotes and commentary and words of encouragement… Words that seemed to match exactly what I was thinking and feeling. A Heavenly message from an Earthly friend… It was exactly what I needed. From that moment, things felt small again. Life seemed do-able again. And God seemed present again.

Things here still go up-and-down fast. I get excited when I see improvement in my students… My little data graphs are so reinforcing for me. It’s pretty funny. But then there are days when I just want to use a little magic and insert knowledge into my students’ brains so that it sticks, because whatever I’m doing certainly isn’t getting it to stick (just learn the color green… Please… And blue… and a square… and the letter A…. please!).

In two months I will be in Spokane visiting the place where I left a big chunk of my heart. I wish I could fly there now and go to Pleasant Blends on my way to Green Bluff… The place where I got Randi and Caty to hang out with me for the first time J But instead, I will go to Family Fun Day and probably get overwhelmed and venture out to Prom Prom tonight for Girls Night with our Bible Study girls and our visitors… I don’t have much of a choice but to do my best loving life here.

PS- Happy birthday, Roomie (Callie Bergstrom)! I am still thankful Whitworth knew we needed to live together. Have the best day today!

14 October 2012

Adventure Day


Yesterday was a beautiful day.

I woke up, hopped on the computer because I knew our internet expired tomorrow (well, today now), and was greeted with lightning-fast internet. After posting a Facebook status about said internet (it’s the little things here), my dearest wonderful friend Anna Richter (Richter! AH!) “liked” it, meaning that she was awake… Therefore, I quickly got a hold of her to get on Skype because I wanted to see if it would work with my magical speedy internet (there are different internet settings here, I don’t really know how to explain it, but mine was on a server it had never connected to before, but I liked it!). After discovering that my webcam has a built-in microphone (which was good, because my headphones with a mic were left at school over the weekend!), Skype worked for 8 whole minutes! Which was more than I expected it to! After I gave up on trying to get the internet to work (it had gone back to its usual snails pace by now), I gave up and just called her instead. I had told a few of the City of Refuge kids that Anna and I were playing phone tag, and Abigail and DK kept telling me that I had to find them whenever Auntie Anna called. When I went to the house to go get Abigail, I called her over from across the path… Once she realized I was on the phone, she SPRINTED to me with the biggest smile on her face, took the phone out of my hands, and literally danced as she was on the phone with Anna. She was so excited to get to talk to her, it was so stinking precious!

After running out of phone credit (discovered that European calls are more expensive than American ones… Worth it!), I took a quick shower and ate some bread before sitting down to make plans with Holly!

This week, Holly and I decided that we needed to find a way to take an adventure over the weekend. I had only been around in a car and I wanted to take a trotro, a 9-passenger van that sits between 9-12 people depending on how crowded they want to make it. I’m sure that sometimes they fit more in there, but we were lucky and got pretty reasonable ones! We didn’t really have anywhere specific we wanted to go, just somewhere away from here. After getting some guidance from John and Stacy, we took off walking (though not to where John told us to go… We were stubborn!) and caught a trotro going into Accra. Mind you, we were told to go to Ashama and then to Circle and then to Makola in order to get to the market we wanted to go to… But we decided Accra would work! Even though we got ripped off a cedi on our trotro fare, it still worked out well! Turns out the trotro goes right past the Accra mall, which I have been to twice already but we knew our way around there! So we hopped off, got some pizza, ate some ice cream, and made a few quick trips to get some internet credit and some fruit! We thought about picking up some new movies, but all of them were SUPER expensive, and we had a lot of people just staring at us (I took my first deer-in-the-headlights picture with a Ghanaian man who wanted pictures with obrunis… Don’t worry mom, I’m safe!) so we headed out.

We ended up taking a taxi down to the market because we wanted to see what it was like. Stacy told us it was a local market so there wouldn’t be tons of tourists (and by that she seemed to mean we were the ONLY white people in sight), and things should be cheaper and it was big. We got there and discovered that big means huge and crazy and overwhelming… Honestly, we didn’t last very long there. We walked around, Holly picked up some fabric, we each got a few vegetables (I bartered for the first time here… Got myself a free pepper!), and took a taxi back to the mall. We probably could have got a trotro, but the taxis aren’t too expensive if you can barter a price (which I left to Holly) and are much more convenient. We picked up some juice at the mall (sweet/fruity things are a must when we go there) and hopped on a trotro back to Doryumu. Though I realize it doesn’t sound like much of a day, it was so fun to feel like we could independently make our way around part of this area and do something by ourselves.

When we got back, we were greeted by most of our older boys playing a game of football (er, soccer) on the field by our school. They were telling us to come play… What they didn’t realize was that having us on their team would probably hurt them rather than help them. But we did make our way back to the field after dropping our stuff off and met Lauren, a girl who was staying with CORM for the weekend. We were told that they boys played “nice” during the game since we were playing with them. Every time I touched the ball, the boys cheered for me… Luckily they didn’t care that I usually kicked it the wrong way. My header earned me extra cheers… These kids are the best. Even though most of the kids at the school are hard, the kids that live here have been shown so much love, and it shows through their behavior and the way they love us.

And the day just kept getting better… Our Friday night dinners usually consist of fried rice, chicken, salad (which is so exciting… cold food!), and lately avocado… I look forward to it all week. But on Friday, our cook Lydia was out of town so we weren’t able to have that meal prepared. However, turns out she got back yesterday and she was able to make it for us on Saturday instead… I was so excited! John started teasing me about how much I was eating (I didn’t eat much on Friday night and he kept giving me crap for that too), but kept putting more rice on my plate… I couldn’t complain!

After dinner, we (me, Holly, John, Stacy, and two visitors, Caitlin and Adrian) hopped into the car to make a quick trip to the Beebe house. We had swapped games with them but we wanted to trade back (side note: a volunteer is bringing Ticket to Ride, Settler’s of Catan, AND Quelf this week… I am so excited!), so we made a visit. As we arrived, the four oldest Beebe boys came running at us with water guns and we got soaked! Weston didn’t even let up once I was inside, he still squirted me in the stomach! It got us all wet, but certainly also got us all laughing! After staying there for a little while and being content because Godwin had finally stopped giving me the silent treatment (he spent a few days this week deciding he didn’t want to talk to me… But since he fell asleep in my arms after church today, I think I won him back over), we headed back to the house to play a few rounds of Bohnanza (or Beans, as we call it) before bed! In the car, I got a lot of flak for my competitive (er, aggressive?) spirit that shows up greatly in Ticket to Ride… It’s not my fault that my competitive side gets shown in board games now since I don’t have volleyball as a release! Despite my competitiveness, I still lose at pretty much every game we play here… Including football (I was definitely a bad luck charm yesterday).

After everyone headed to bed, I spent about an hour on the computer trying to download a few things and using Google voice to “text” some beautiful friends back home. Even though I didn’t get to bed until late, it was such a beautiful day that I couldn’t bring myself to call it to a close! I am so thankful that I was blessed with a day that made me smile… A day where I felt filled and pleased with what my life is here. This is been a hard week, and even today has been a hard day, where I feel like I am in a constant state of wanting and missing things that I know are so far away… But within this time was a day of such rest and laughter, and for that I am so grateful!

05 October 2012

Up-and-Down


Every week at Bible Study, Robin (see “Names” post) asks us what our “Word for the week” is… A word that describes how we are coming into the night, how we have been, what we are worried about, how we are feeling… Anything. Last week, I cheated a little and used the compound word “up-and-down”. Thank you, hyphens. But really, this was the only thing that captured my week… Whirlwind? Stressful? Unexpected? I guess those could have worked too.
Here is a mini-synopsis of the teacher situation at my school…
1.       Day before school starts, 2nd grade teacher has to quit for a family emergency. I get asked to teach the class until Autumn can find a replacement.
2.       The end of week 2, we learn the teacher is going to be able to come back. I am told that someone else (my co-teacher) will cover Monday & Tuesday and the teacher will be back Wednesday.
3.       Teacher never comes the next week (week 3), other teacher is gone Thursday and Friday, I cover for 2nd grade on Thursday. I get driven out of the classroom in tears and Autumn has to come cover for me while I get my act together.
4.       This week (week 4), 2nd grade teacher finally comes back.
5.       Last Friday, 1st grade teacher has to quit because her mom is sick. One of the kindergarten aides has been covering in the class (because the teacher missed 3 days) and was expected to continue in there.
6.       This week, the kindergarten aide doesn’t show up to school and doesn’t answer her phone when Autumn calls! Meaning that my co-teacher and I have been switching off in the class covering…
So basically, right now, we don’t have a 1st grade teacher. My classroom is still covered in wood shavings and carpentry projects, so I haven’t been able to do any small group work… I have been doing one-on-one instruction with 2 students on the days when I haven’t been covering for a class, but that has only been two-and-a-half days (of the 16 days we’ve had of school!). Needless to say, life is a little crazy.
I feel like the message God has been trying to get across to me is “Don’t get too comfortable in the role you imagine yourself having here… I used SpEd to bring you to this country, and now I will lead you where you need to go.” As though my purpose here isn’t just in my classroom… As though there is more to this journey for me. But I don’t know what that will look like or how it will play out during my time here. So for now, I will just walk in faith day by day, trusting that even when I am put in the most random and frustrating situations, there is a reason behind it all.
There have been good parts too, both in and out of the “classroom”… Holding Bismark’s hand as we walk up-and-down the football field, counting our steps in groups of 20. Seeing his face light up when we read our Social Story about being in school and he realizes it’s a book all about him. Listening to Theresa tell me that she wants to learn to read and write, even though she is 17 years old. Watching a fashion show at the Accra mall with Holly and Paul and being so confused when the models don’t even stop at the end of the runway. Sitting on the porch drinking tea and reading my book as the rain POURS down around me. Walking and talking with Miracle, seeing the cry for attention in his eyes. Finishing a beaded necklace that has been so frustrating for me to complete. Praying fervently with Holly, Autumn, John, and Stacy at the school after dinner, when everything is dark and everyone feels disheartened. Getting an e-mail from Ryan Miller, the pastor of Branches, and being reminded of how thankful I am for that place. Hearing from Margo and imagining the sweet Spokane life of the Long/McMurray family who all love the fall season so much. Seeing pictures of my sister and her boyfriend at homecoming, looking like they had so much fun. Playing “Ticket to Ride” at the Omorefe house and slowly revealing my scary-competitiveness to Holly, Autumn, and Stacy, all the while being reminded of “Trains” nights at the Compound and missing it dearly. Seeing Moses during lunch with a huge smile on his face and a hug waiting for me. The moment last night where I felt “How can I ever leave this place? There is so much work to be done here” and being so satisfied with the place I am at. There are up-moments, for sure.
I just pray that as my time here continues, I am able to finally settle into a routine, but not a routine that brings abut ruts and complacency… If two years at Branches taught me anything, it is to not settle for ordinary or comfortable. It is to break the order, to create friction, and to take it as good and meaningful… To mix things up from time to time. And certainly, there has been plenty of “mixing” in my time here already… May flexibility reign and may teachers be called forth to this school to be leaders! We need people to make this place work!!!

Internet Fast


This weekend I got so frustrated with myself for so easily falling back into the pattern of getting on the internet constantly, checking my e-mail and hoping for a measly notification of Facebook, probably from the Whitworth Club Volleyball Team saying “Open gym tonight at 7:30 in Graves!” I would spent time waiting for my e-mail to load only to receive an e-mail from “1000 Awesome Things” or “BECU Account Statements”… I don’t even use my BECU account. In fact, I tried to close it and the teller guy is a sweet-talker and got me to keep it open… Note that I haven’t made a deposit in there for probably 4 years. But alas, I got so frustrated at spending time (and money!) looking at nothing that I told Holly to hide our “internet stick” (I still don’t get how it works) from me until Friday.
That’s not to say that I don’t LOVE hearing from people—I do! And that’s why I check my e-mail and Facebook and blog (yes, I check my own blog. I have a strange obsession with looking at my view count and trying to guess who might be looking at it) as often as I do. I eagerly await replies from friends from home, e-mails with news or fun facts or random tidbits about the life that I am used to, wedding color schemes from Tricia, news of the students coming into Caty’s class before school, the first weeks of grad school from Callie Gordon, a blog about second grade from Kaitlyn… Even though these things feel so far away, I love to hear them. But I don’t love the feeling of being pulled away from my life here to find a tiny smidgen of comfort from home on a daily basis.
I brought letters and pictures with me, and my e-mail program on my computer lets me open up all my old Whitworth e-mails even without an internet connection, so I can reply and re-read and reminisce (thank goodness… that capability has gotten me through some hard nights here). But this week, I am trying to spend more time reading and writing and praying and being here, instead of missing or searching for home.
The first two weeks that I was here we didn’t have internet access at all, and it really wasn’t that big of a deal. I wrote a lot of blogs and e-mails and awaited the day when I could post or send them all, but even though everything here was new, not having the ability to get on wasn’t that big of a deal.
Even though now we have access to it pretty much any time we want, Holly rarely gets on. Part of it is her computer wasn’t working, plus the internet makes her computer freeze (Dad, I’m really glad I brought this one and not my one from school!), but never does she complain or really miss it much. I want to be more like her in that regard… Thankful for the messages and notes I do receive in time, but not sitting around waiting or hoping for them. Just taking things as they come.
A little piece of me wants to reach across this table and take the internet out of her computer and just check my e-mail… Just in case… But what is there now will be there on Friday. And if wanting the internet is my biggest craving or pull right now, then I have bigger issues to grapple with… Issues of materialism and satisfaction in the words of other and a desire to be acknowledged. I am re-reading Donald Miller’s “Searching for God Knows What” (which I believe I mentioned in an earlier post) and he speaks so much of the human desire to be validated by those around us… “Validation” was a word that the Bat Cave (Tricia, Devin, Callie, and myself) threw around as a joke for a long time in college… Teasing ourselves for our desire to have others say that what we are doing is good or right or meaningful. When I am online, I feel as though that’s what I am looking for, even from my closest friends… Words that say to me, “I am proud of you. You are doing something special. I still love you, even from afar.” Yet, I am a walking contradiction… I will say to you, “No, I’m not doing anything special. I’m just teaching… And sometimes not even that. I’m just following a calling.”
Not to say that it’s not a leap of faith. No, this life is not for everyone. Yes, things here are HARD. Some days are harder than others. But it’s like I want to hear these things only so that I have the opportunity to try and appear humble. So that I can say “Thank you, but really, I’m just doing what I’m supposed to do.” And that defeats the entire purpose.
So in case I have thoroughly confused you, about my thoughts from West Africa, let me summarize:
I love you all. So much. And I want to hear from you. So please keep writing. Tell me about your life – that stuff is my favorite to get.
Even when it feels far away. Even when I miss it. Even when I am waiting for a student to draw a triangle on a whiteboard and I have images of driving up to the Wandermere movie theater in Tricia’s car, even when I picture myself holding a Starbucks cup with a Pumpkin Spice Latte, even when I hear about teachers at home and wonder why I am in this place or if I’m even doing the right job or if I will even be a good teacher, here or in the States… I want to hear about it all. Please.

24 September 2012

Thankful


Today was my first day doing special ed testing here! A lot of what I am going to be doing is explicit phonics instruction, because letter-sound correspondence is really challenging for kids here, especially the ones who have not been to school before. But I am so excited and thankful to be out of second grade and starting with a new slate!
This weekend I got the chance to go with Holly, Rosemary, Paul, and the Beebe family to a local river and spend the day swimming, going off the rope swing, and doing a little shopping at the nearby market. It was such a fun day and a huge blessing to be able to take some space from City of Refuge and just go laugh. Holly had me a little afraid that my legs were going to get bit by a crocodile, but we didn’t even have any fish sightings!
We haven’t had a 5-day school week yet so this week may prove to be very long, but I am hoping my classroom will get cleared out (all of the library shelves have been built in my classroom so there is wood and wood shavings all over) and I can actually start putting it to use!
PS- Thank you, Lisa Laurier, for having such a helpful textbook from your class! I had to level a book today and it was so nice to have the book with me! It’s already been used so much and I haven’t even started teaching yet.

22 September 2012

Names


Since leaving for college, I have found it funny thinking about the “names” in the stories I tell. When I left for college, I had a certain set of people that I always talked about from home and I wanted to make sure my new friends knew who they were. When I went home from college, I had a certain set of “names” from school that I talked (well, talk) about to everyone at home.
For me, knowing other people’s “names” and the group of people that’s important to them is always something I have valued. I think it’s so fun to hear about the new friends my high school friends have made at college, and so fun to hear about the high school friends of my college friends.
But because of this, I’ve struggled when there are people I’m close with that I feel like don’t take the time to learn my new names. That was really hard for me, especially with people from high school, when I felt like I had to clarify “Tricia/Devin/Callie, my roommate” or “Erin, she was my RA but then I lived with her and now we’re still friends” or “Randi, we played volleyball together.” And it wasn’t that I hadn’t mentioned them before (sometimes many times), it’s just not something that some people value knowing or remembering.
I feel like I talk about a lot of people in these posts, but who they actually are remains very confusing. It’s easy to keep track of people here (though there are still children’s names I need to learn), but telling stories is confusing because there are people from so many different areas/sections of City of Refuge and surrounding ministries that are involved here every day. Plus, no one (besides Anna) knows any of them, and probably won’t meet any of them… meaning it’s not easy to be invested in learning about them. But I am here for a year, and I want people at home (from all chapters of my life) to know about those who are shaping me and teaching me. With that, here is a little mini-biography of my current “names.”
John & Stacy Omorefe- John and Stacy are the couple that started City of Refuge. They and their family live in a separate house on the campus where I go to eat breakfast and dinner every day. They have spent the last 2 weeks on a cruise ship in Europe (don’t worry, I’m not jealous at all) and will return back here on Tuesday. John grew up in Nigeria and Stacy is from the States.
JJ (8yrs), Caleb (6yrs), and Justice Omorefe (3yrs)- These are John & Stacy’s biological children. They all live here (in the Omorefe house, not the children’s home) and attend school at FRIA (Faith Roots International Academy, my school).
Miracle (10), Paul (14), Rosemary (15), and Nosa (? He’s an adult) Omorefe- These are John’s brothers and sisters that he took under his care when his father died. They all live with the Omorefe family and Rosemary does a lot of the cooking for us. Nosa is an electrician and a total lifesaver to have around. Currently, Holly and I can’t find the set of keys for the volunteer house (where we’re not actually living, just using the water while ours is shut off) so I think he’s not very happy with us. But I really don’t think we were the last to have them!
Autumn Buzzell- Autumn is the Principal of FRIA and lives with the Omorefe family. This is her third school year in Ghana. Originally, she came to tutor the 9 children City of Refuge had, but she ended up starting her own classroom for them and has since opened a school that local children attend. She is from Colorado/California, and I was able to meet her, John, and Stacy when I was in San Francisco last Jan term. Autumn is the epitome of the word “servant” and handles everything on this campus, from taking on the role of “Mama Autumn” when J&S are gone to dealing with parents who don’t speak English at school, doing it all with such grace and love.
Holly Stewart- Holly is my roommate and the other volunteer teacher at the school (working in the preschool). She grew up in California, has been in Ghana since July, and will stay through December. Because she was here for 2 months before I got here, she was a HUGE help in teaching me the ropes of this place and just being a support in all aspects of life here. She has been a huge blessing to have in my life here and it will be really difficult when she leaves in a few months (but I can’t be looking that far ahead!). We live in a guest house with just the two of us, meaning that our living room area (which only has a small dining table and 2 plastic chairs that we stole from outside) is typically covered with teaching supplies and mugs with leftover tea/coffee, plus maybe a few candy wrappers.
The Beebe Family- The Beebe’s are a missionary family that is serving in Ghana with an organization called Feeding the Orphans (FTO). Originally from Knoxville, they have moved here for 2 years. Their family consists of Robin, Reed, and their 5 boys Mason, Franklin, Weston, Braedon, and Godwin. Godwin was adopted from Ghana last year and is HILARIOUS- he is so cute but he talks with such a monotone voice that it’s just precious. All the boys attend FRIA and are working to figure out school life in Ghana (which is SO different than in the States). Robin serves as a teacher mentor at our school and is there a couple days a week observing classrooms and working with the teachers. She also hosts our weekly girls Bible Study which includes me, Holly, Autumn, Katie, and a woman named Angie.
Katie Batchelor- Katie is a recent high school grad who knows the Beebe’s from home and has come to live with them for two months here. She is helping out at the school and doing ministry work with them through FTO. She has the sweetest southern accent and sometimes I just like to listen to her talk. She also shares my love for pineapple, which I appreciate greatly.
Angie (I know her last name but I can’t think of it!)- I just met Angie last night for the first time but she is a missionary living about an hour and a half from us in Cape Coast, Ghana. She and her husband Paul also run a children’s home and she attends Bible study with us when she is able to make the trip out here.
I know I have also spoken about my co-teacher here, but I will leave the names of the other staff off of this blog. There have been some great high’s and great low’s already in working with this staff, as I try and figure out what they are saying with their accents and how students know how to learn here.
There are 36 (I think) children living in the Children’s Home right now, and I’m a little nervous to see how many names I can actually name…
Joel, Malvin, Edwin, Gamali, Amenyo, Gabriel, Portia, Hannah, Florence, Mary, Mary, Dora, Evelyn, Gracie, Abigail, Aggie, Valentina, Benard, Benard, Bismark, Bismark, John, John, Sami, Moses, Rafael, Rafael, Robert, Mershak, Alex, Ben, Enoch, Aaron… That’s 33. And I’m sure I’m forgetting some really obvious ones! Plus I had to have Holly/my camera help me out with a couple.

My typical school day schedule as a 2nd grade teacher (which I am not anymore!):
4:30- Be woken up by the stupid roosters outside our window. Try very hard to go back to sleep.
6:01- Be re-woken up by my alarm after an hour and a half of lame sleep. Be mad at the roosters. Contemplate showering, usually decide it’s too early for cold water.
6:40- Walk to the Omorefe house for breakfast. Remember how I’m definitely not a morning person. Eat bread and drink hot water or tea because I’m still trying to not drink coffee. Crave Pleasant Blends anyway.
7:00- Frantically go back to my house and gather the 1,034 things I have to bring to school.
7:10- Leave for school, frantically write the schedule on the board and organize worksheets and think “I should have done more yesterday!”
7:45- School starts!
9:45- Think to myself “How am I going to make Language Arts last 45 more minutes? We’ve already been going for an hour.”
10:30- Send the kids to break. Usually give them 5-10 extra minutes for my own sanity.
2:00- Think to myself “Just one more hour…”
2:50- Mass cleaning chaos ensues, since SO much dirt & dust & mud get tracked in every day
2:59- Send the kids out the door!
Tuesday-Thursday we have meetings after school, Monday and Friday I stick around for a while to prep for the next day. Because we don’t have a ton of hands-on supplies, much space in the classroom, and critical thinking is basically nonexistent here, it’s difficult to be a creative lesson planner. Or I just need to be much better at using what I have. Which I know is definitely true!
4:00- Lock our door, sit at our dining room table, and debrief the day with Holly and a cup of tea to soothe our hurting throats! You can likely find us trying to beat the next level of Box Man on Holly’s phone… Anna, I understand your Ghana cell phone game addiction! I have this funny Panda game where you have to butt-bump bugs off of the bamboo stalks to earn points and it’s super funny.
6:00- Head to the Omorefe house for dinner with their family.
6:45- Prep for school the next day, listen to music, clean, or read
9:00- Go to bed and repeat the next day!
I am hoping that as this routine solidifies and I start to work in the resource room, I become both more motivated and more of a go-getter. These first two and a half weeks have been pretty disheartening in the classroom and pretty hard on my confidence as a teacher. I am walking away from this 2nd grade class feeling as though I didn’t teach them anything, and that is so hard for me. I’m sure it’s also not true, but it feels like it… And I know there is a lot more I could have done. But I still have a whole year left in this school and I need to remember that I still have a lot of work left to do with these kids!!

On Tuesday night this week, I got a chance to talk to Tricia on the phone for a while, which was such a needed and uplifting conversation. However, at the same time, it made me miss home and the people there so much. There is a huge chunk of my heart that wants to be in Spokane talking wedding details with Tricia and spending time outside with Devin and drinking Pleasant Blends with anyone who I can convince to join me. Another huge chunk of me wants to be somewhere in close proximity to Caty where I can go hang out with her and her sweet kittens whenever I want to, with the ability to text those both near and far to me at all times. But yet, the chunk that I chose to follow has been called here to West Africa. The one thing that has the ability to tear me down here is wishing for what I cannot have, and I have to figure out a way to both cope with the desire to be in the States yet learning to love being and living here. I was talking about this at Bible Study last night and Robin was asking us all “What do you to do deal with missing home?” and I had to just say that I don’t have a way to deal yet… Besides leave Chapel crying because it’s all I can think about (that was my Wednesday. I left  class crying twice this week… It wasn’t my best moment). I know that this week I sound like I am just complaint after complaint, but I know I shouldn’t be… I am blessed here and thankful to be in the place where I am at! Time to go finish tying up second-grade ends and prepping for Resource Room! Pray I don’t get blown away (literally) by the crazy wind that is outside right now…
PS- There was a HUGE rainstorm that lasted half an hour during school yesterday and I couldn’t teach because you couldn’t hear anything since the rain was so loud… It was so cool! Even though it makes everything so muddy, we have the ability to be inside during the rain and I just love it. My classroom roof does leak in places though so we had to do some rearranging of the desks during it… I’m sure this was just the first of many experiences like this!