28 May 2013

Cape Coast Slave Castle

This weekend, I had the opportunity to travel to Cape Coast, an area of Ghana where I have been wanting to go since my arrival in September. While the trip overall was a great weekend getaway, I was most impacted by our trip to the Cape Coast Slave Castle and the reality of the atrocities that happened there during the Trans-Atlantic Slave Trade. It was a painful, but incredible opportunity to visit this place…

The view from the Governor's bedroom...
I don’t know how exactly to put this experience into words... The Cape Coast castle served as a place where captured Africans were brought, sold for a price depending on their strength and health, and then kept for 2 weeks-3 months before they were put on a boat and shipped off to Europe or the United States to, again, be sold as a slave. We walked through the dungeons where they were held, standing on a floor comprised of their urine, feces, vomit, etc. that has hardened over time. We saw the room where anyone who tried to escape was put, which had no ventilation and where they received no water and no food… they literally starved and suffocated to death, their punishment for attempted rebellion. We saw the room where any woman who wouldn’t let the soldiers use her to “satisfy their need for sex,” as our tour guide put it, was put for punishment, receiving only a small daily amount of food and water through a slit in the wall. We saw the Governor’s room, which had a beautiful ocean front view with a huge living space and a separate bedroom. We saw the site of the first Anglican Church in the country, built directly on top on the dungeons… They would sing and preach ON TOP of the prisoners that they had deemed as dirt and sold as property. “Ironically, Heaven up there, Hell down here.” We walked through the door where the captives were loaded onto ships and sent off, the Door of No Return…

We saw just a small, small piece of the hell that these people went through… and it was painful! Painful to think of the horror that these innocent African men, women, and children went through… Painful to think of the Governor sitting on his high horse with his ocean view and his personal secretary… Painful to think that human trafficking is still happening all over this world, and it happened to the kids I live with! It’s one of those things that you learn about in history class time and time again, but to actually get a little glimpse of reality… It hurts.


And I’m not sure what to do with that.


God is Really Cool

After being in Ghana for 8 months, I sit staring at the last 11 days on my calendar before I leave. I have been trying to process through emotions, but there are SO MANY and they are constantly changing that I haven’t even figured out how to process well.

Since a week and a half ago, there have been multiple days that I’ve woken up feeling sick to my stomach at the thought of going to school, simply because I know it is ending so soon. I have cried in front of kids multiple times… Sometimes, you just can’t keep it inside! Sitting in Autumn’s office this morning, I talked her through a million things going through my head. To sum up my mind…
Me: It’s not like I’m on a roller coaster, just…
Autumn: Just a perpetual flood?
Yes, exactly…

At this point, I don’t have a lot of “things” I want to accomplish. I want to cry with the kids… I want to pray for the school… I want to spend time with Autumn and Emily… I want to laugh… I want to love hard… and I get to do each of those every day (ok, I’m not crying with kids every day… But it has happened a couple time in the last few weeks!). I simply want to be present in this place for as long as I can. Returning from Cape Coast, I was reminded that life will most certainly go on when I leave… There will be some stings, and the evening of “See you later” will be extremely painful, but for everything, there is a season…

Last Wednesday, I struggled through some feelings of inadequacy in thinking about my time here, just feeling as though I hadn’t done as much for the kids I wanted or seen as much change in some of them as I hoped… But God really had to show me that I am dealing with living, breathing sons and daughters of Him, and He’s the one who is going to be present here forever and ever, even when I leave. It took words of encouragement and tears from someone else to really make me able to believe that my time here mattered… To really be able to believe God’s truth above the enemy’s lies. Above all else, I know that my time and purpose here was planned by God, even when I have a hard time figuring out what my “purpose” was. I have really been leaning on Isaiah 49 this week, which I read on the afternoon of my struggles…
“He said to me, ‘You are my servant, Israel, in whom I will display my splendor.’
But I said, ‘I have labored in vain; I have spent my strength for nothing at all. Yet what is due to me is in the Lord’s hand, and my reward is with my God.’
And now the Lord says… ‘It is too small for you to be my servant to restore the tribes of Jacob and bring back those of Israel I have kept. I will also make you a light for the Gentiles, that my salvation may reach to the ends of the earth.’” (v. 3-4, 6)

Just when I felt as though my labor was nothing, He told me “Not only are you not nothing, but you are even greater than you can imagine…Even the title of “servant” I have given you is too small…

That afternoon, I sat outside the library and wept during our staff meeting, simply overwhelmed at the fact that He wouldn’t even give me an afternoon of wallowing before He spoke up on my behalf… I soon had a group of 1st graders gathered around me, and all I could tell them in response to “Auntie Kathy, why are you crying?!” was “God is just really cool…”

He’s more than cool… He’s faithful. He’s redeeming. He’s caring. He’s a fighter. He’s sovereign. He’s King of Kings, Lord of Lords… He is the one with the bigger picture in mind that I am so desperately trying to see, handing over my human eyes that look to next Saturday and instead taking up His eyes, which see my life and its purpose in His kingdom...


As I am typing this, the rain has started falling… My favorite thing in Ghana. I’m sure that means the power will go out soon, which is really too bad since it’s time to go to bed and it’s challenging to sleep without the fan… But God, I thank you for the time of peace that the rain brings to my heart. I thank you for the ways that you show yourself in simple beauties. And Lord, I thank you for the way you love us, are enthralled by us, pursue us… You are really cool.

20 May 2013

Always an Adventure

Sometimes, it’s easy to forget the bigness of the fact that I live in AFRICA! I get caught up in day to day activity, things like cold showers and lots of rice start to feel like the norm, and even the heat feels a little manageable…

But then days like yesterday and today happen.

Yesterday, I ventured into Accra to meet up with Jenn Whitmill, my sweet friend Devin’s big sis! It was such a blessing to get to see her, but my whole travel experience was a bit of a disaster… I was able to look up her location on a map, but the bus that I thought would take me right across the street (which I think it actually stopped there, I just didn’t get off!) ended up taking me 3ish miles away… But it took me half an hour to realize that. I wandered around downtown Accra totally confused about where I was, and totally in the wrong place. On my way back to City of Refuge, our trotro broke down and tons of people started screaming at the driver in Twi… All I understood was “me pacho,” which means “Please, I beg you!” It was a little crazy.

After I finally got back to City of Refuge, I found out that we had no water… For some reason, it had been turned off by the water company. We hoped that it would just be some kind of overnight maintenance at the dam where the water comes from, but 20 hours later there is still no water to be found. We are trying to use the water from the underground “manhole,” as the kids keep calling it, to take baths tonight, but the water coming out currently smells like eggs. Solid.

From 7:45-11:45 or so this morning, we didn’t have electricity at the school. We also were missing a teacher, which meant I spent the day subbing. We also don’t have any ink in our printer, and the place that stocks it has been out for a month, so we don’t have any copies.

Needless to say… Today was a day where I was reminded of the adventure of living in Africa.
And I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Sure, it feels like all I can think about is taking a shower because I am FILTHY. But I’m alive, there is still (somehow) rice on the table, and our electricity at the house is on. God is capturing me with His words in Isaiah. I have 38 little souls running around this place who are simply awesome. I have some wonderful co-laborers who fill me with their words and laughter. I have words from close friends and videos of 4 year olds driving little racecars that came in e-mails today. I have 19 days left… and if it’s 19 days left like this one, then I will be really smelly, really exhausted, really thankful for this time, and really sad to leave this beautiful place.

12 May 2013

Hiking


All break, Mary has been persistently asking “Auntie Kathy, when can we go hiking?” After wimping out time and time again, I finally became set on taking the kids before school started again on Tuesday. Saturday morning, after the kids finished washing their clothes, we set off on a hiking adventure.

Me and Mary :)
We live right across the street from an area of Ghana called Shai Hills, an area known around the country for its plethora of quarries. Daily we hear the blasting of rock that we like to pretend is gunfire… “Didn’t you know? Ghana’s actually in the middle of a war right now!” These hills are more like mini-mountains (or REALLY big hills) and it’s a treat to take a few hours away from City of Refuge and head over for a hike.

Emily, Grace, Theresa, and I!


Grace, Theresa, and Evelyn

It ended up being the perfect day… We are transitioning into rainy season, so the morning was overcast and “cool” (probably 75 degrees). Quickly (as in before we even left our property), I was reminded that I was hiking with teenage African boys who can literally run up mountains! It was crazy to watch some of them move… They looked like gazelles bounding up the hills, even without a beaten path to walk on. We had to hold some pretty loose reins; otherwise we would have tortured the poor boys… But no one got hurt (Grace and I were the only ones to come away with any blood, as far as I know), no animals were sighted, and everyone made it back to CORM in one piece… Overall, a successful trip by my standards! My “low” for the day was definitely the blisters that I accumulated on the back of my heels… I walked back to CORM in just my socks, as that was less painful than wearing my tennis shoes! When in Africa, do as the Africans do…
OW!

About 5 minutes away from the house, it started to POUR. We had felt a few raindrops which caused us to start heading back, but as it usually is in Ghana, this rain went from 0 to 100 in just a few seconds. By the time we returned, all of us were quite wet and quite cold! The kids were asking “If it’s this cold, could it snow today?” For some reason, I don’t foresee that happening…

I am thankful for this time to spend some time with our kids, no strings attached… Just the company of those who feel like hanging out with you, which turned out to be Mary and Evelyn for the most part. Continuing to get little glimpses of their lives, like watching them all pick the leaves of a plant, crush it in their hands, mix it with water, and show me that it turns their hands red… These are little moments that I will treasure.

09 May 2013

Spaghetti Brain

If this doesn’t make sense to anyone besides me, blame the spaghetti brain.

Today marks the one-month mark of my time left here in Ghana. I am finding myself thinking about going home more and more, especially since we have been on break for 3 weeks and I have been left with quite a lot of free time. The afternoons are HOT and the kids are loud, leading me to spend some quiet afternoons locked up in my room with a book or an unbeatable game of Mahjong (Emily spent a lot of time laughing at me yesterday as I was tried for game after game to win… all to no avail). Today, I am spending the morning fixing my flash drive so that I can load pictures on it to take back, as this computer is staying here (thanks, Dad, for being willing to leave it here!). Right now, it’s hard for me to work up the energy to go and play on the playground with the kids… Again…

We often tease John about his “waffle brain,” thinking in a very compartmentalized way and focusing on only one thing at a time, as compared to our silly and nonsensical girl spaghetti brains that produce a great deal of laughter as our “brain doesn’t connect to our language,” as Autumn would say. Right now, I feel like my brain is a big huge plate of delicious spaghetti, packed full of joy and love and excitement that is happening around me, right now… But the only thing I can stare at is the big honkin’ meatball on top… My plane ride back to the States. My long layover in Frankfurt. Entering into Denver. Getting to the airport in Spokane at 11:30pm. Jumping into a week of wedding festivities for Tricia and Jesse. Going “home.” This meatball looks really good…
But I’m not sure I like meatballs! I’ve never been sure I liked meatballs, actually. And when meatballs including leaving City of Refuge and my family here, I’m really not so sure that I like them. I know I like spaghetti, and spaghetti is around me right now… My life at CORM is the spaghetti… Let’s feast!

But meatballs mean eating Olive Garden… Talking walks with friends… Living with Kendra… Teaching kids with autism, my ultimate passion in life… Hugs from my closest friends… Adventures in the Tri-Cities… Drinking lattes (Alyssa, I can’t wait to do this with you!)…

What about Uno with the kids in the summer hut? Games in the sand with rubber bands? Making Joel flip in circles? Morning greetings from Gamali, Benard, Aaron, and Bismark? Laughing so hard with Emily and Autumn that Em squirts hot chocolate out her nose? Hugs from kids at school?

I want to be present while I am here. I want to bask in those moments.
But that meatball just looks so dang good…

When I first came back to Ghana in January, I struggled a lot for about a month. I wanted to be places I wasn’t, I wanted to be celebrating occasions with people instead of from afar, I wanted to live in community… In a different community than the one I am in. This week, a dear friend was sharing about some of her homesickness struggles and said “Home sometimes always seems somewhere where we are not!” When I put stars on a map for all the places that my close friends are occupying in this world, my heart is spread out over cities… Over states… Over continents… All of which hold a little piece of “home” in the hearts of my friends. If home is where the heart is, then my home is all over the world… And that’s pretty special, if I’m willing to come to terms with the fact that I’m always both at “home” and missing “home.” Easier said than done.

I really want to eat my spaghetti. I really want to focus on what’s here, right now, in the day that the Lord has made… The people that I am around right now… But I’m afraid once the spaghetti is finished, I am just going to be wanting to go back for seconds… And thirds… And that feels painful, when I know that for now, the pot is empty. God planned it that way… But that doesn’t change the fact that for now, spaghetti time is finished.
And that meatball just looks so dang good… “Maybe I’ll just stop there,” I find myself saying.
No. That’s not the kind of life I want to live.

Lord, help me to look past the meatball. Help me to feast on my plate of spaghetti, even though at some point, the plate has to end… Help me to see that you always make more spaghetti, and at some point, there may even be garlic bread to go along with it. Help me to treasure this new home you have made for me in Ghana, and the home you are preparing for me in Kennewick next year… Help me to see that you are our portion… You are our daily bread… You are the spaghetti and the meatball. Let’s feast!

05 May 2013

When Patience plays hide-and-seek… and wins.


As of now, we are officially on a three-week break from school… However, this time certainly didn’t come easy! Since March, things at school have been… well, pretty chaotic. We lost two teachers the first week of March, one unannounced, and unfortunately we have only found one replacement. This situation left Autumn filling in the role of 5/6/7th grade English/Language Arts & Creative Arts teacher, with me hopping in during her observations, meetings, etc… For the last two weeks of the term, I was in the job full-time as Autumn had piles of paperwork to complete and close to 100 visitors pass through during that time. I am thankful that we have the ability to be flexible in situations like this, and that Autumn is willing to both be patient and to ask for help when she knows she needs it.

However, these two weeks were not a walk in the park… While I usually consider myself to be a patient person, there are times when this patience gets worn thing… Goes for a game of hide-and-seek, if you please. Usually, I win the game… But sometimes, Patience finds a really good hiding spot. This time around, it took me two weeks to find it… I could spot it from time to time, but it quickly ran and hid in a new spot whenever I caught a glance. That’s not the kind of person I want to be with these kids… That’s not what they deserve. But there’s only so many times I can say “If you sit in your seat and raise your hand quietly, then I can help you.”

Last night at Bible study, we were reading 2 Peter 1:5-8 and while I love what this passage has to say, it was also very convicting… “For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these very qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

This isn’t just a one-time thing… We don’t just have self-control and call it good, and we don’t show knowledge once and then stop growing in it… These characteristics are supposed to be increasing in us all the time, regardless of the circumstances around us! And the last part, verse 8… These are what keeps us from being ineffective or unfruitful. I felt that those two weeks… I was not as effective or fruitful as I should be because I wasn’t willing to be diligent in supplementing my faith with my actions! I was short with kids, I yelled, I guilt-tripped, I took away privileges, I had heart-to-hearts with kids who wouldn’t listen… I was human. But we are called to be more than human… We are called to live in the image of Christ, the one who did no wrong and committed no sin. But the greatest part is that I am forgiven for that… Those sins are all laid down on the cross and finished… “It is finished,” as we chanted over and over again during my day subbing in 4th grade on the Thursday before Easter.

I am grateful that even when I lose game after game of hide-and-seek with different virtues, Jesus always comes back and says “It’s ok… I love you.” I’m learning that it’s not the fact that it takes me a long time to “win”, but the fact that I kept playing the game that matters… What a beautiful thing to come to terms with.

He Sets My Steps


“We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives us the right answer.” Proverbs 16:1

In my opinion, some of the most beautiful times in life are the times when our plans and the Lord’s plans for us line up perfectly. It’s these times when one is reminded that He knows the greatest desires of our hearts… Often times, He created these desires within us! My last two weeks have been a tribute to God’s sovereign ways and His everlasting care for us.

About 4 weeks ago, I received an e-mail asking to do a phone interview with the Kennewick School District. My first answered prayer was that they were willing to do a phone interview—Skype doesn’t work on our campus and an in-person interview clearly wasn’t an option, so their willingness to do it over phone was a huge blessing. This was the first response I had heard from any districts I had applied in, and the fact that it was in the Tri-Cities (an area in southeast Washington) immediately caught some heartstrings. This is an area that has been on my “radar” since last summer when I was looking at job openings, yet preparing to leave for Ghana for the year instead. There were jobs opening up in Pasco, Richland, and Kennewick that I would have applied for in a heartbeat, had I not been spending the year abroad. Each time I saw these jobs pop up, a little piece of my heart questioned my decision to leave (a decision which I have not questioned once since I set foot on the red dirt of Africa). Ever since then, I’ve had a not-so-secret pull to this area, so I will admit that my job search sometimes ended up a little biased. Receiving even just an interview from Kennewick was a big deal for me! However, I didn’t really understand what job I had applied for… I know that sounds silly, but the job posting was confusing and I just applied because it was labeled “Special Services Teacher.” My mindset was pretty much “Well, it doesn’t say it’s just a resource room, so I might as well apply!” Going into the interview, I was nervous that a few minutes in, I would discover that I was interviewing for a job I didn’t even want and I would just feel silly!

Thankfully, God goes before us and He knew what I was getting myself into! My interviewers (the district Special Education directors) told me right off the bat that this was a general interview for their special education jobs, and if there was a specific job that came up, I was interested in, and they thought would be a good fit for me, then they would go to the specific building principals and advocate for me. At this point, I was feeling so many emotions… So THANKFUL for that assurance, relieved that I wasn’t interviewing for a job I would hate, nervous about the fact that this could eventually turn into something real, still terrified about the pending interview… All kids of fun things wrapped into one voice on the phone. Regardless, I spent about half an hour chatting with my interviewers and calmed down a little with each passing question. At the end of the interview, the district director asked what my dream job would be…
Me: “An elementary autism classroom, for sure. I want to work with kids with more severe disabilities, and I know that a specific autism classroom is much more rare, but I particularly feel called toward those with moderate-severe autism.”
Director: “Well, that’s an interesting answer in light of my next question… We have an elementary autism position opening in one of our schools next week, is that something you would be interested in applying for?”

I probably didn’t make much sense in anything I said after this point in the interview because I could barely concentrate. Really, God? Are you serious? You’re really putting this right in front of me? They were able to tell me a little about the classroom, the location and culture of the school, the district in general… Everything sounded perfect… Too good to be true, even.

“Well, I just looked it up and the job officially opens next Wednesday.” (I have to wait 5 days to just apply?! I have no patience for these things!!) “Your job now is to fix up your cover letter, look for the opening once it’s up and put in your application as soon as possible. Between now and then, we will be having a very energetic conversation with the principal about you. We think you would be a great fit for this position.” (Did he really just say that? Is this actually happening? There’s no way…)

So I waited the 5 treacherous days and put in my application as soon as I was able to on the day the job was posted. At this point, I realized the job was open for a week, which just led to an even longer waiting game… For those who know me, waiting for things like this feel like torture… So I spent a week praying “God, I surrender this to you! I put this whole process at your feet! You know the plans You have for me, and they are way better than anything I could create for myself…” I had myself convinced that the job was going to go to someone within the district.. So I continued with “Lord, have your way!!”

At this point, I was still preparing for two Skype interviews that were planned with other districts for this week. I was pretty nervous about the fact that they were on Skype, and my best answer for getting Skype to work was to do it at the Accra mall, since I could get good wireless on my iPad. Yesterday Emily and I ventured into Accra in an attempt for me to Skype with Anna to test it out, as well as to see if I had heard any news from Kennewick since the job had closed the previous night. Of course, in the funny ways that God works, the internet was down at the mall so I couldn’t Skype with Anna and I didn’t know what I was going to do about the interviews the next day… Right at the height of my frustration, as I was was waiting for Emily to get back to our table so I could go get something chocolatey to make myself feel better, she came back with our friend Richard next to her! Richard works for an organization called Feeding the Orphans, which provides school lunches at Faith Roots and is also the organization that our friends the Beebe’s are here serving as the “hands-on” forces. Turns out that Richard and the Beebe’s had been out working this morning and now they were all heading back to the Beebe’s, which was our destination later that evening… We walked out with Richard just to say hello, and Robin and Reid quickly invited us to head back to their house and connect to the internet there. Since our plan at the mall seemed to be a lost cause, we had an easy decision in front of us... Considering their family is leaving for the States next Wednesday and will not return until after I have left, I wanted to soak up any bit of Beebe time I could get! Reid and Katie (our sweet friend Katie Batchelor who got here the same time I did in September, stayed for two months, and then came back in March for another month here in country) assured me that I could use Skype at their house if I needed to, so I felt a little more assured that something would work out for the next day.

I had been counting the hours in the States, trying to figure out the first point that I might hear back from anyone in Kennewick… I was sure it wasn’t likely to hear from them right away, but I thought that just maybe they would get back to me in the morning. After getting online at the Beebe’s, I discovered an e-mail from the school principal that had been sent the day before… “Our job closes tonight and I want to fill it as soon as possible. Is there a time when we can talk on the phone tomorrow? I will be in a meeting all day but I can easily step outside and chat with you.” At this point, it was 9:00am in the States on the day when she wanted to talk… Cue freak-out mode! I had no phone credit, so I went into a little bit of a craze in the Beebe’s living room… Leading to precious Godwin asking me “Why are you so excited? I can see you’re really excited about something. Sometimes I get excited, but then I go back to regular.” I love the way 5 year olds process their emotions!! Godwin and I walked up to the nearest store to get phone credit, and I realized that the phone number on her e-mail was her office phone, which wouldn’t be helpful if she was in a meeting. After some quick e-mailing, God-ordained responses, and a few hours of phone tag spanning over the time of Bible study, I was finally able to get a hold of her… And I got the job! No Skype interviews necessary, the kind of classroom I have dreamed of, the city I have hoped of for a year, in a building that people have said nothing about great things about… God seriously never ceases to amaze me! Still, a week and a half later, it doesn’t feel real… But God’s hand has been so clearly present in all aspects of this process, and I am so blessed.

“That’s so cool that you got a job from Africa!” –My mom… It’s true. As much as I hoped it would happen, I certainly didn’t expect it to happen… I am a first-year teacher applying from halfway around the world without a good internet connection… That alone screams “Yeah right!!” But God had told me that my plans were secure, and all I could do was trust in that. I am so excited to be moving to Kennewick this summer and starting another phase of my life… While at the same time, I know that moving to Kennewick involves leaving Ghana, and that is the most bittersweet thing that could happen. My heart is going to break into forty-one pieces on the day when I hug these kids “See you soon,” and I know that driving away is going to be the most painful experience of my life… Add a few extra broken pieces for the amazing adults that I have been blessed with here as well, and I will be a huge mess. A beautiful, broken, redeemed mess… But a mess, none the less!

At this point, I have a little under five weeks left in Ghana. I’m sure I will come back, but I don’t know when it will be… And no matter when it may be, this place will sure look different! My prayer for these next six weeks is that I may be present in this place, soaking in the time with these kids and loving life here, even the sweltering heat that beats on our backs and the power that can’t decide if it wants to stay on or not. I am so grateful for the lessons I am continuing to learn here, and I pray that they continue to come…

“’For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.’”

I am thankful that for this season of my life, He planted seeds in my heart that coincided with His plans for me!!

God’s Hand in Chorkor


This has taken me 3+ weeks to write… Part of it has been forgetting, and part has been struggling to find the words to capture the beauty of this day. I figure that at some point, I have to get around to pressing “Publish”… So here goes nothing.

For the past two months, I have been bugging Robin Beebe about letting Caty and I accompany her and her family to Chorkor for their April visit. We were grateful that we were able to work out a time when all of us could go, yet we didn’t even know what would be in store for us this day.

Once we had picked up everyone we needed for the day (and Godwin had fallen asleep on Caty’s lap), Robin started talking about the different jobs that needed to happen that day. First off, one of the single mothers was being taught how to make bracelets out of beads in order to hopefully provide a living for herself in the near future. She is currently traveling about 3 out of 7 days a week, leaving her kids small amounts of food while she is gone, along with a house that has no mother in it. Feeding the Orphans is trying to teach her a trade that will keep her close to her family, but still be able to sustain herself as she needs.

The next job that had to be delegated was collecting thank you cards from 14 students at a community school who received education sponsorships through Feeding the Orphans. These students were not going to school before, as until recently, there were only (expensive) private schools in the area. It is just recently that they have been able to get access to education, which still would not be possible without the assistance of FTO and their sponsorers.

Finally, there were still more deliveries to be made, so a group of people would make the last round of food stops while the others stayed behind to complete their tasks. As Reid decided that it was important for Caty to get to see a local school, we were assigned to thank you card duty – fine by me! Walking through the village to get there, I was able to get plenty of laughs from the locals by throwing “Etesein!” (How are you?) their way… Always brings about a giggle at my attempt to sound like I know what in the world I am doing!

As we approached the school, I was thankful we had our friend Richard with us… Richard is a FTO employee who has been working in Chorkor for quite a while and has built some strong relationships with the people there (the fact that he is Ghanaian instantly gives him an advantage over any America trying to do the same job!). He knew what kids we needed, where to find them, and who to talk to so that people were’t totally freaked out by the white people in their school! We did get a LOT of attention, but at least they had some idea of who we were!

While thank you cards themselves went pretty well (much better than I expected!), and meeting those kids was so sweet, what I wasn’t quite prepared for was the time we would have after we finished. The kids were on their lunch break, but it kind of seemed as if they were done for the day… There was zero structure, minus the teachers running dance practice for the kids in the middle of the courtyard. Caty and I wandered in and out of classrooms, peering into life at this place… Life which includes classrooms that are small and dark, blank walls, and a chalkboard and chalk as supplies for the day. Children bring their own “exercise books” to school, and all work appears to be done in these small notebooks. After seeing the crazy excess that accumulates in many American classrooms, it’s heartbreaking to walk into these rooms and realize that this is all these are able to provide for.

At the end of the day, I stood in a circle with a few kids trying to get them to sing me songs they knew from church… I only got songs out of a few of them, but their words were beautiful. I just stood there feeling as though my only purpose that day was to say three simple words… “Jesus loves you.” There was a beautiful girl, probably 13 or 14, who just had the eyes of a leader… I can’t even remember her name, but I remember her eyes and I know she is going to be such a force for His kingdom… So I took her hand and told her that. “God has big plans for you,” He told me to say… “Keep going to school and getting an education, you are going to do such great things!” Her smile was priceless… But that was God’s promise to her in that moment. I pray that she continues to seek out her great future… I really believe it’s there waiting for her.

As I start to look toward my return to the States, it’s days like these that I hope I never forget. Days where the brokenness of our world feels pressed into my heart… Days where I am reminded of how much help some people in this world need… Days where God is so clearly working, even in the depths and the pain and the struggle… Days where God so clearly spans this entire world in such an intimate, beautiful way.


The classroom where we wrote their thank you letters...