05 May 2013

He Sets My Steps


“We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives us the right answer.” Proverbs 16:1

In my opinion, some of the most beautiful times in life are the times when our plans and the Lord’s plans for us line up perfectly. It’s these times when one is reminded that He knows the greatest desires of our hearts… Often times, He created these desires within us! My last two weeks have been a tribute to God’s sovereign ways and His everlasting care for us.

About 4 weeks ago, I received an e-mail asking to do a phone interview with the Kennewick School District. My first answered prayer was that they were willing to do a phone interview—Skype doesn’t work on our campus and an in-person interview clearly wasn’t an option, so their willingness to do it over phone was a huge blessing. This was the first response I had heard from any districts I had applied in, and the fact that it was in the Tri-Cities (an area in southeast Washington) immediately caught some heartstrings. This is an area that has been on my “radar” since last summer when I was looking at job openings, yet preparing to leave for Ghana for the year instead. There were jobs opening up in Pasco, Richland, and Kennewick that I would have applied for in a heartbeat, had I not been spending the year abroad. Each time I saw these jobs pop up, a little piece of my heart questioned my decision to leave (a decision which I have not questioned once since I set foot on the red dirt of Africa). Ever since then, I’ve had a not-so-secret pull to this area, so I will admit that my job search sometimes ended up a little biased. Receiving even just an interview from Kennewick was a big deal for me! However, I didn’t really understand what job I had applied for… I know that sounds silly, but the job posting was confusing and I just applied because it was labeled “Special Services Teacher.” My mindset was pretty much “Well, it doesn’t say it’s just a resource room, so I might as well apply!” Going into the interview, I was nervous that a few minutes in, I would discover that I was interviewing for a job I didn’t even want and I would just feel silly!

Thankfully, God goes before us and He knew what I was getting myself into! My interviewers (the district Special Education directors) told me right off the bat that this was a general interview for their special education jobs, and if there was a specific job that came up, I was interested in, and they thought would be a good fit for me, then they would go to the specific building principals and advocate for me. At this point, I was feeling so many emotions… So THANKFUL for that assurance, relieved that I wasn’t interviewing for a job I would hate, nervous about the fact that this could eventually turn into something real, still terrified about the pending interview… All kids of fun things wrapped into one voice on the phone. Regardless, I spent about half an hour chatting with my interviewers and calmed down a little with each passing question. At the end of the interview, the district director asked what my dream job would be…
Me: “An elementary autism classroom, for sure. I want to work with kids with more severe disabilities, and I know that a specific autism classroom is much more rare, but I particularly feel called toward those with moderate-severe autism.”
Director: “Well, that’s an interesting answer in light of my next question… We have an elementary autism position opening in one of our schools next week, is that something you would be interested in applying for?”

I probably didn’t make much sense in anything I said after this point in the interview because I could barely concentrate. Really, God? Are you serious? You’re really putting this right in front of me? They were able to tell me a little about the classroom, the location and culture of the school, the district in general… Everything sounded perfect… Too good to be true, even.

“Well, I just looked it up and the job officially opens next Wednesday.” (I have to wait 5 days to just apply?! I have no patience for these things!!) “Your job now is to fix up your cover letter, look for the opening once it’s up and put in your application as soon as possible. Between now and then, we will be having a very energetic conversation with the principal about you. We think you would be a great fit for this position.” (Did he really just say that? Is this actually happening? There’s no way…)

So I waited the 5 treacherous days and put in my application as soon as I was able to on the day the job was posted. At this point, I realized the job was open for a week, which just led to an even longer waiting game… For those who know me, waiting for things like this feel like torture… So I spent a week praying “God, I surrender this to you! I put this whole process at your feet! You know the plans You have for me, and they are way better than anything I could create for myself…” I had myself convinced that the job was going to go to someone within the district.. So I continued with “Lord, have your way!!”

At this point, I was still preparing for two Skype interviews that were planned with other districts for this week. I was pretty nervous about the fact that they were on Skype, and my best answer for getting Skype to work was to do it at the Accra mall, since I could get good wireless on my iPad. Yesterday Emily and I ventured into Accra in an attempt for me to Skype with Anna to test it out, as well as to see if I had heard any news from Kennewick since the job had closed the previous night. Of course, in the funny ways that God works, the internet was down at the mall so I couldn’t Skype with Anna and I didn’t know what I was going to do about the interviews the next day… Right at the height of my frustration, as I was was waiting for Emily to get back to our table so I could go get something chocolatey to make myself feel better, she came back with our friend Richard next to her! Richard works for an organization called Feeding the Orphans, which provides school lunches at Faith Roots and is also the organization that our friends the Beebe’s are here serving as the “hands-on” forces. Turns out that Richard and the Beebe’s had been out working this morning and now they were all heading back to the Beebe’s, which was our destination later that evening… We walked out with Richard just to say hello, and Robin and Reid quickly invited us to head back to their house and connect to the internet there. Since our plan at the mall seemed to be a lost cause, we had an easy decision in front of us... Considering their family is leaving for the States next Wednesday and will not return until after I have left, I wanted to soak up any bit of Beebe time I could get! Reid and Katie (our sweet friend Katie Batchelor who got here the same time I did in September, stayed for two months, and then came back in March for another month here in country) assured me that I could use Skype at their house if I needed to, so I felt a little more assured that something would work out for the next day.

I had been counting the hours in the States, trying to figure out the first point that I might hear back from anyone in Kennewick… I was sure it wasn’t likely to hear from them right away, but I thought that just maybe they would get back to me in the morning. After getting online at the Beebe’s, I discovered an e-mail from the school principal that had been sent the day before… “Our job closes tonight and I want to fill it as soon as possible. Is there a time when we can talk on the phone tomorrow? I will be in a meeting all day but I can easily step outside and chat with you.” At this point, it was 9:00am in the States on the day when she wanted to talk… Cue freak-out mode! I had no phone credit, so I went into a little bit of a craze in the Beebe’s living room… Leading to precious Godwin asking me “Why are you so excited? I can see you’re really excited about something. Sometimes I get excited, but then I go back to regular.” I love the way 5 year olds process their emotions!! Godwin and I walked up to the nearest store to get phone credit, and I realized that the phone number on her e-mail was her office phone, which wouldn’t be helpful if she was in a meeting. After some quick e-mailing, God-ordained responses, and a few hours of phone tag spanning over the time of Bible study, I was finally able to get a hold of her… And I got the job! No Skype interviews necessary, the kind of classroom I have dreamed of, the city I have hoped of for a year, in a building that people have said nothing about great things about… God seriously never ceases to amaze me! Still, a week and a half later, it doesn’t feel real… But God’s hand has been so clearly present in all aspects of this process, and I am so blessed.

“That’s so cool that you got a job from Africa!” –My mom… It’s true. As much as I hoped it would happen, I certainly didn’t expect it to happen… I am a first-year teacher applying from halfway around the world without a good internet connection… That alone screams “Yeah right!!” But God had told me that my plans were secure, and all I could do was trust in that. I am so excited to be moving to Kennewick this summer and starting another phase of my life… While at the same time, I know that moving to Kennewick involves leaving Ghana, and that is the most bittersweet thing that could happen. My heart is going to break into forty-one pieces on the day when I hug these kids “See you soon,” and I know that driving away is going to be the most painful experience of my life… Add a few extra broken pieces for the amazing adults that I have been blessed with here as well, and I will be a huge mess. A beautiful, broken, redeemed mess… But a mess, none the less!

At this point, I have a little under five weeks left in Ghana. I’m sure I will come back, but I don’t know when it will be… And no matter when it may be, this place will sure look different! My prayer for these next six weeks is that I may be present in this place, soaking in the time with these kids and loving life here, even the sweltering heat that beats on our backs and the power that can’t decide if it wants to stay on or not. I am so grateful for the lessons I am continuing to learn here, and I pray that they continue to come…

“’For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.’”

I am thankful that for this season of my life, He planted seeds in my heart that coincided with His plans for me!!

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